There a couple of main points, the first being that I have stumbled upon injury on a few occasions over the last few months and I am simply not healing as fast I used to.
At a certain the point the body just is no longer interested in what the mind thinks it should, I think this vessel of mine is at that crossroads.
Secondly, I just want to be more able. I have found myself saying 'no' to various adventures over my adult life because I am fearful that my body won't be able to keep up or handle the pressure. I was lucky enough to be born with a respiratory system that is decent, limbs that are functional, and a brain that can do most simple math problems and the occasional cross word - hell, I've even made it through a shotty college course with honours. I guess I am learning that there is just no sense in wasting this privilege.
That all said, there is a mental toughness that I need to acquire... or rather build on. I've missed one class now as result of a my idiocy and forgetfulness, other than that I've been to all classes. Today, to be honest, I feel a little bit discouraged as I was unable to do some of the exercises. Simply do not have the physical ability... yet. yet! This is a process and its going to take some time, probably more than six weeks of boot camp, and I just really need to be O.K with that. Being O.K with it to a degree, there is a necessary push that has to come from the mind that I am admittedly often lacking. Whether it be at the gym, on the ice, or even in life matters generally. Enrolling for school, budgeting, reading books instead of floating between facebook and hockey highlights... these things just have to happen, yet I find myself avoiding and/or finding ways to not do them. Time to get tough, and time to see a counsellor!
Today at class our warm consisted of: Sprinting up the stairs x3, after that, more stairs with five push ups between each level. We did this about six times. After that we began our circuit, which consisted of 60 skipping jumps, 15 push ups, 15 kettle bell things, 15 arm kettle lifts, 20 lunges - we did this three times. After that we ended with some core exercises... and this is where I got discouraged. I could do the russian twists, but had trouble with the toe touches (lie on yer back, feet to the sky, and touch 'em), and boat rockers.
The solution to this is to stretch more and start working those core muscles I guess. Fuuuuuck.
Next time I write on here it will be about music or something. something less jocky.
In the meantime: If you are a dude, or know a dude who is terrified of crying, interested in domestic violence (they oughta be!), and gender analysis, power role analysis. Check this out, it might be a good starter. This is a link to part one, there are nine.
on the music front:
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